The appliance I have come to most appreciate after all of my time overseas is the dryer.
Not the stove, or the fridge but the dryer.
(though the stove and fridge fall quick in line behind)
Today, at the lovely home I am staying at, I knew that I needed to do laundry. I’m almost at the bottom of the barrel of underwear which is honestly my key deciding factor in doing laundry.
So this afternoon as I was pulling clothes out and deciding what to wash the thought occurred to me, “Oh wait, I need to wear these jeans tonight so I can’t wash them.”
My mind went on autopilot and already started calculating how many days it would take my clothes to dry. It calculated how long it would take my clothes to catch up to me.
But of course, I’m not international anymore.
I don’t have to leave my clothes hanging upstairs, or be fearful it’s going to rain. “Lavanderia” no longer has to be one of the first words I learn in a foreign country.
Because, next to the washer, in the garage is of course a dryer. My load of clothes was washed and dried in under two hours.
I didn’t have to wait for my clothes to catch up to me. Didn’t have to pretend those clothes don’t exist for one or two days because they are stuck in the purgatory off the drying rack.
I think that in this world of therapy (of which I am an advocate of) and processing (of which I get the concept///hate the word) we sometimes forget that we don’t have to wait for lessons to catch up to us. We forget that we don’t have to pretend that we don’t “get it” yet and we can just live it.
Sometimes we can just put something new on and be done with it.
I think I’ve been timid the last couple of weeks to allow myself to just step into what I have learned and done. Almost like I took all of the clothes I got in Spain and set them out to dry instead of popping them into the dryer and putting them right back on.
There is a time to let truths sink in, and there is a time to repeat them so they are true.
But why don’t we wear them through that process?
Why don’t we choose to believe that we don’t have to catch up to something that was so truly already inside of us?
I got off to a shaky start here in the OC.
I got a lot of lies spit at me. I didn’t believe them. I put them aside, but also thought I had to find my footing when I really didn’t.
I was told I had to process.
I didn’t need too.
I was choosing to believe I couldn’t just pull my big girl pants out of my suitcase and put them on and live. I’ve had a hard time communicating that beyond text messages and stream of consciousness emails.
I thought United States Meg had to catch up to Spain Meg.
But they are the same people.
I no longer have to let my clothes air dry and catch up to me a few days later.
So I guess my challenge to you today is this:
If you’ve had revelation or truth spoken at you; if you’ve come to the realization that something you’ve known all your life is a lie?
Walk in it.
It doesn’t have to be something you hang up on the clothesline to dry so you can put it back on again.
Pop it in the dryer and wear it.
It’s for you.