I was putting on my leggings this morning and I thought of my tiny humans. Every weekday at about 11AM you can normally find me helping two year olds go potty and put on pull-ups and put their pants back on.
And let me tell you, hell hath no fury like a tiny human whose pants are too tight, bunched or stuck on their foot.
I rarely can fix the problem before the whines and squeaks begin.
My tiny humans quickly tell me when they aren’t happy, uncomfortable or any form of not feeling perfectly at peace in their own skin. Their blankets aren’t right, they have the wrong cup, their food is touching. They let me know when they are hungry or tired.
They refuse to live like that. Ever.
Not having it.
At some point, obviously, that changes.
At some point we begin to just be ok with things that cause us discomfort, or pain, or take our peace of mind away. At some point we are entrenched in the knowledge that “life isn’t fair” and “you just have to live with it”.
At some point we just live with things being off or bunched or too tight.
Why do we, as human beings, decide that we aren’t worth living our life to the fullest, we decide we aren’t worth rest, or lovely things.
We decide that someone else’s happiness is more important then ours.
Now, I am not saying that we have to be happy all the time, or comfortable, or that we have to satisfy every need and desire we have right at the exact moment.
I am saying, is that living at a two for the sake of living at a two is dumb.
I’ve been pondering this idea lately. The idea that we as humans choose to suffer for the sake of suffering.
I feel like christians have cornered this market. Suffering for the sake of suffering. I have done it, I have been in a place of not accepting something, or not choosing something because I thought I wasn’t supposed too.
But, what I have learn in my life thus far, is that are already times when life will feel crappy, hard and all the things without me choosing it. We don’t need to create more situations like that.
I learn from my tiny humans a lot. And today, when putting on my leggings, I was reminded that I don’t need to choose to be uncomfortable, I don’t need to live in my unhappiness.
I don’t need to make life hard for the sake of it being hard.
Now, I don’t need to throw a tantrum when my leggings catch on my foot, or when I feel lonely, or if something doesn’t go my way.
But, if I have the ability to fix it- why shouldn’t I?
There are a lot of big world things we are unable to fix. There are a lot of circumstances that we aren’t meant to change . We can’t always leave the job, or move out of the city, or magically be in a relationship.
But, we can fix our leggings or go on a run, we can hang out with friends or we can light a candle and take a deep breath.
We can find the things we need to find balance and joy and peace.
We are allowed to choose goodness.
We don’t need to scream about it like my tiny humans but we can take deep breath and figure it out.